This is me

Why do i just lie awake and think of you?

I need some sleep..

Tomorrow i have things to do..

Everytime i close my eyes i see your face,

So i try to read but all i do is lose my place..

I just had to call you up and say hello.

I know it's 3 am.

And i saw you awhile ago.

But i still had this aching need to hear your voice

To know your there..

I don't seem to have any choice.

I'm so sorry i just had to wake you up.

I feel so lonely by myself.

Is this the way it feels when you're in love?

Or is this something else?

I do my best not to want you

.

But i do all the time i want you all the time.

Am i obsessed with you?

Love is always a battlefield

You're the only one that would make stupid faces

when you know it makes you ugly just to see me smile again

"I miss your stupid face"

Lost and yet not found

So close together

And when I'm with you

So close to feeling alive

So close

Yet still so far.

How far could we go better than this

Our distance was just so close

Till we were just lips to lips far apart

Just scrubbing across our fingers

And yet..... So far

I hate it

So it's my second day of working

My working days are............ *secretttt*

(:

Ask me in person if you want to know heh!

So my second day of work was doing the same old thing again

I wish my boss could just passs me some new stuff for me to follow

Some NEW onessss... LOL...

Anyhow.. Work is nice.. comfy.. But tired and boring for now

Working time is kinda not balance for me

As I would to skip my dinner till a late dinner

And my gastric attack always comes at the wrong time

Everyday I'll have to get use to my pains......

See how bad it is................... ):

Tomorrow results maybe out..

Nothing much to hope once again

Just for credits and pass all my subs..

I wont want to fail

cause my parents wouldn't want to waste such money on retaking my subs

Bah-nessssssssssssssssssss

I don't know why..............

I'm just not in a moodddddd

SHitnesss MUCH...........................BLARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lifestyle Programme?

I'm blardy stressed up now

I need air..........

My chest hurts again when I breathe

And bones are aching.... arg

Time for a change

What hurts me the most now

is I don't know how to express how much pain I'm having

Too many things happening around me nowadays

made me learnt how to smile and laugh even when it hurts me inside

I start to hide my emotions behind everyone

Because I've been told I'm always emo........

So.... Hiding my emotional away from everyone is the only way out

I hope I wont get mentally abuse by my self for doing this

I know this pain is somehow going to fade away

But I don't know how long will I need....

Give me some time (:

A little short story bout today

So, I've got this very good marketing promoter partner

Name Xiang... He did some very good marketing business with me in Genting today

Don't know to say it's a proud thing to talk about or an embarrassment lol

We sold our tickets to people around and we even gain profit!

I've experienced too much today LOL.. Going around talking to strangers T.T

The most important thing is... WE GAIN PROFIT!! how marvelous....

You'll always be my star

=/

Thanks...