Moodless

First you spoil my HUSH PUPPIES slipper that cost me RM200 ++

And today you spoil my CARLORINO heels that also cost me RM200++!!!!!!!!!

I need those pair of heels to perform today

I need those pair of heels for my coming wedding dinner

and the most important thing its very comfortable

i needed to wear it on my 4 days convention that needs me to stand for 13 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I where got enough time to get another heels at the moment?!

I work day and night while studying now

WHAT IN THE WORLD YOU WANT FROM ME?!

I had enough of you man.. early morning spoil my mood

I'm very UPSET!!!!!!!

Hectic

Reporting :

Daddy has 2 blockage in his heart.

The result of having stroke..

He had been staying in Sunway Hospital for the third day

And needs to stay there until don't know when

He needs operation

I hope he comes home soon

So I won't have to take care of the family for him...

I'm exhausted and tired

I'm not ready to handle anything on my own....

Though I don't want him to be back nagging me

But I want him back to drive me everywhere......

):

You'll always be my star

=/

Thanks...

broken

):

人比人，比死人

I wouldn't say that I'm not in a wrong

But I can say I wasn't totally wrong

I'm sorry for what I've done

But you wont have to pick on me

It's all about comparing in your life

What else you would say to judge me?

By comparing me with somebody else

You always remind how grandma treated you

You know what....... I miss her too

I can still what grandma had thought me

You don;t have to repeat it to me

Because whatever grandma told me I had always kept in mind
Sometimes I wouldn't know how to apply morality into my life

But I think you should know nobody is perfect

Whatever it takes...I care no more

I'll do whatever that can repair this relationship

But please....... just stop picking on me then you'll see how much I've done

You think lecturing me THIS way can make me change to be a better person

But I can tell you honestly

You're making things worst........

It hurts you know?

I guess it's time to update abit of my blog

It has been rusty for 4 days

I've learnt alot these pass few days

Soon enough I won't be able to get out of my house for quite a long time

Might be busy nowadays

Don't mind if i didn't layan any of you my friends

Cause I'm reallllly busy with stufffss

Sorry to those I had neglected, I didn't mean it

Anyhow, Old updates!

September 11

Happy Birthday Suet Teng my dearest sweetest honey darling aunty!

Miss you lost.... Like LOTS okay?? ^^

Happy birthday to my dear Uncle (:

Though at times I might go against you but yet you buy me food =p

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY mother!!

Yeappp Huei Ling my dear Mother

You know how much I care

And I know you're happy with ur birthday though things didn't work out the way it should have been

Once again, May God bless you in all ways (:

September 14

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEPHERD!

Though I've been your sheeepey for just few months

Yet I can feel the bond in us (:

And also though the plan didn't turn out the way it should have been

But stilll.... SURPRISE!!! ^^

Besides all the Birthday wishes...

Now, here comes the sad partttt

Farewellsssss ):

Dear Clara, you've left not long ago

Yet I missed you already

If you didn't had to leave I guess right now we've been closer

I hope things are well for you at Sibu

Will miss you lotsss and Take care!

Huey Lynn

is leaving to UK... very soon

very very soon... and I can remember the day she is leaving

Cause I asked her like 2 or 3 times den oni I can remember

Our last outing was kinda rush

But I like it (:

Jhuuuunnnnnngggggggggggggggg!

U're like leaving tomorrow

And things had been passing quite fast

Wont be able to send u off tomorrow

And watching you singing today was fun xD

Will misss you too!

feeeeeling sadddd

You did it again

But when I watch you doing it

I wonder..

Will you come back to me again

I saw you from a distance

I realise that I can't find a reason to call for you

I thought, it would be better if I just watch your back

Because I decided to stay away from you

I know

I can't survive another night away from you

You're the reason I moved on

And now I need to live the truth

That's why... I gave up

Because

I loved you ♥

I'm sad

If you realise...

You're not invisible

Accident - Read it with patience

On the way back home....

It was super jam

I can barely move a meter on road

Driving really carefully

Thought that it was the stupid traffic light that went malfunctioned....

But.....

It wasn't the traffic light

I realise there were a lot of motorcyclist all around

Like...REALLY alot.... maybe 30 to 40 of them..

Wondering what is wrong......

A RAPID bus was on the left lane.. But it didn't move

Suddenly there was siren

Motor police passed by

And then... I saw the back of the bus

There was this cover that came off from the bus

Then.........Police was blocking the road

I saw a black plastic bag that I couldn't imgaine how badly it was

Lying on the ground not a single movement

Then I was stuck at the traffic light right beside the body

Two motorcyclist came next to my car and just walked off to the body

They rushed to the scene and pulled off the plastic bag

At that moment I can't stop my self from looking at that direction

Quickly one of the man saw it was the person he knew

And then both of them cried..

shouting...

screaming "Why!!!!!"....

And collapsed right infront of my CAR...

I had to say, I was terrified

Though he wasn't a person I knew

But I could feel how painful it is.. And I saw with my own eyes

I....teared a little

It was so heart ache I barely felt my hands

My legs and hands were shaking..

I can still picture it in my mind

Life is so fragile

We could lose it in split seconds

I'm paranoid

I'm.... scared

Today is a day I won't forget

"Please drive carefully"

Why were you the one in my dreams

Watch Football match with

Jethro, Chen Ghee, Ming Xiang, Yeu Kit, Euson and Chee Hoe

At PJ19

They have a very big screen dere

Nice atmosphere

The best part of football is the atmosphere of course!

So Man U vs. Chelsea

Kinda disappointed over it

Man Utd lost.. Yet still adore Owen

^^

Was fun watching with friends for the first time

Never did

Because all the time I watched with the Father

I'm tired actually

But yet not tired T.T

Felt like Insomnia is attacking again soon

P/s : I wish I had told you how I feel.....

I'm not the kind of girl ):

I don't care how is it going to be

But why are you always doing this to hurt me so much

If u actually realize I'm not that easy going

I'm not those girls that gets out in the middle of the night

And swings my hair all over the place

I'm not those girls where they swear more than they eat rice

I'm not those materialistic girls

that actually need guys to pamper

Nor paying for their each meal or every single thing

I'm not the kind of girl that bares ego in mind..

I'm just not into being a princess to my guy

I didn't mean to say things that may make u sad

I was just trying to cheer u up

I did too much till you think I'm going the wrong direction

I'm just me.........

I don't like to be treated like how u treated those girls

I'm different.. I'm just really different from the girls u meet...

That's all

While I guess you didn't like different girls

HECK IT.....

BLARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was just another wrong choice

Things get shit up all the time

I thought you're here when i needed u

But you're just like the others..

Deeper and deeper I go...

Watching you walk away

Ya I'm sick

On and off

But who cares

Anyways

Exams very soon

Stop all the distractions

I'm not gonna think of it anymore

After so long I've been thinking over it

Since then I'm never once happy

I would not want to let my heart take control over my mind

Never mind about it

There is nothing left to discuss about

Move on.....

3/08/09

HAPPY 19th NG JIAN PIN!!

Grow up but not grow old nor taller ya xD

& of course

HAPPY 21st ALAN!!

May God bless you as always (:

When there is no more you

I can honestly say

you've been on my mind since i woke up today

I look at ur photograph all the time

Then these memories come back to life

But guess what, i don't mind

I picked up the phone numerous time and then put it down

Cause i know im wasting my time yet still i didn't mind

I remember those were the times

I still feel it even when I'm asleep

The time that we were so close but yet so far

Then I remember the simple things

I remember till i cry

But the one thing i wish i'd forget

The memory i wouldn't forget is goodbye

Treat me mean, you won't regret

Trust me

Xiang says "No to Cadbury!"

I just had Cadbury yesterday

And I left it in my pencil box cause I did not finish it

So I took it as breakfast this morning! LOL

Don't ask me why I sound so disgusting xD

I have no idea what I was doing either

Not to say I favor it much

But I was trying out if Chocolate can cheer me up

Xiang showed me a video of cadbury!

click here to view it ^^

Freaks me out haha! humorous video

It made me realize why I was so high yesterday after I took the choc

But at least my eye brows did not turn out to be like the advertisement

*giggles*

Note : I don't know you anymore

I'm sick and tired of all the bullshits

Please Undo me since I don't deserve to stay

Shattered pieces of me

I typed...

And then I erased

I typed again....

And I erased

I'm sorry..

Just for you - 9.30pm -

Thank you (: - 10.25pm -

You made me smile (:

You are nothing but a pinch of sand....

Blar....

Now I know.. thanks for everything

You showed me how it feels to be this way

You cared nothing but just a stare

Forget about it....

I'm just not my self... for now

I was unconscious

She and I

I will compensate for your lost

You don't have to

You should understand me

I do, that is why you don't have to compensate

To be honest

I don't understand actually

But the reason I did dat

Was because I know I should pay some respect

This is all for today 

Sorry for everything friends

*I am not sad, I am just not so happy*

You were wrong

OOOOHHHHHH!!!!!!!! xD

Tomorrow is 12/5/2009

A very memorable day??

yeah why not (:

Last year 2008 May 12th was my first day in college

Much more things that had been happening since the day i entered

Well, tomorrow will be my 1 year being in college!

Tomorrow.....12/5/2009

Last year 2008 May 12th 

World big news gone into tears

Where everyone start to mourn for deaths

I guess....It's a very memorable day for alot of people out dere

As you know?? It's SzeChuan earthquake

It has been a year since they had that big earthquake

That killed so many lives

P/S : Tomorrow is the day..... 

" Don't judge me from the outside ^^ "

says me

sorry sorry sorry

I GOT IT!

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I'm sorry

sorry

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I maybe not good in this

But I hope I'll still make you happy

At times

I was wrong

And I will be sorry.